Baby Update

The last thing that I think I mentioned on here was that I had done two rounds of Clomid (with progesterone test levels of 8.3 and 0.2, respectively) in the summer and that, since it didn't appear to work, I would then need to take progesterone (prometrium) twice a day starting on the 14th cycle day. This was because my dr. thinks Clomid may not work on its own due to my probable progesterone deficiency. I was a little concerned about taking progesterone during the school year because in the past that particular hormone has made me feel like I am crazy and has made me lash out in hateful ways to poor Sam because he happens to be the closest to me! Bless him for his patience!

Anyway, we decided that I would start taking the progesterone over Christmas break. So, it worked out well that the timing fell right into place. I took it, and that cycle did not go as hoped.

So, then the dr.'s office said to take Clomid again. So, I did that. Then, when I spoke with my dr., he said to take progesterone from that point in my cycle. He would rather have had me start taking it a week earlier in my cycle, but the communication about it broke down. The good news is that for that cycle, our goal was to have my progesterone test levels be at least 20. Well, it was a 44.3 level! Woohoo! The cycle still did not work out (lead to pregnancy) as hoped, and I was pretty upset because I thought that it might be promising. But, it's okay... we're moving on again.

So, the new plan is...

1. For this cycle, I am taking Clomid and then beginning progesterone twice a day a week after that. (I kind of asked to do it again because for my own curiosity I'd like to see what happens if I do the whole cycle exactly the new way my dr. wants). The goal is that the Clomid will make me ovulate and that the progesterone help my body keep a pregnancy (if I do get pregnant). But, if this plan doesn't work out, then we move on to...

2. Testing and Testing. We will further work to determine what exactly isn't going correctly. If/when it gets to this point, then I will update!

By the way, if you're reading this and wonder why I put all this info on my blog, here's why:

I had a big mental block for a long time about taking medicine to attempt to get pregnant. I saw it as "having to take medicine = I am a big failure". But, after going through this process, I know that there are so many other people going through the same thing, and that I am certainly not alone. So, if you are or if you know someone going through it, you/they are not alone either! This just lets me put it all out there because if I don't, then I start to worry and stress more about it and internalize it and blame myself. Plus, if someone else reads this and they're facing the same thing, maybe they can use it for what they need at that moment.

Anyway, it's all going to work out in God's time. I just pray and hope that I am doing what He's wanting me to do in order to help this process along.